Next Week

 Procrastination is one of my biggest flaws.  With that being said these are the things I am going to do next week.

• Get back to the gym.
• Avoid ALL drive- thrus.
• Get to bed before 10:30pm.
• Post about my most recent adventure.

Of course there is a slew of other things on my list but this is a good start.

Cry me a river

This one time I knew this girl that never turned down an opportunity to get out of town and be spontaneous.  When approached with a great opportunity to hit the road she jumped right on it.  Bags were packed and she was ready to roll in no time.  There was no hesitations and she never said things like, ' I need to stay home and clean or my car is not washed or I need to do laundry.'  I am sad to say that girl was me and I think I have lost her.

Lately I have felt so robotic.  I feel like my life could not get anymore dull and mundane.  My days consist of going to work, going to the gym, eating, and then getting ready to do it all over again the next day.  These feelings have been coming and going for some time now but it's not until today that I wanted to throw a little temper tantrum about it because I turned down a trip to the beach with my sister and I really wanted to go.  I talked myself out of it because I am going on a big trip in 2 weeks and I need to prepare, my house is a mess, my car is disgusting and my significant other and I made plans with another couple a week ago to hang out this weekend.  So did I make the right choice?  For responsible reason, yes I made the right choice.  Am I happy with my choice?  Not really.  Am I being selfish?  Maybe a little because I am going on a trip in two weeks and it's not like I never get to go to the beach.

As I have mulled over this all day I have been to trying to figure out how I can bring spontaneity back into my life.  All I need is time and money so here is the plan.  Win the lottery.  Problem solved.

I know, I know.  I just need to suck it up and quit my whining.

This is not my first rodeo

I started my first blog about 5 years ago and deleted it a few years after that.  This blog, that is no longer, was written during a time in my life that I look back on with bitter sweet feelings.  Unfortunately the bitter became very bitter and I had to delete it but don't worry it wasn't that great of a blog anyways so not a huge loss.  But here we are with blog #2 and I am very hesitant about it for these reasons that are not listed in any particular order.

• What will I write about and will it make sense?
• Do I really have that much to say?
• Is it going to take up time that I feel I don't have enough of?
• Grammar, grammar, grammar!
• I hate starting something and not finishing it...

With that being said I am going to do it anyway.  This time around there will be no pressure.  If I have something to say it may get posted or it may not.  If I don't have anything to say and it has been weeks since a post I am not going to force anything.  This is going to be real.  This is Blue.  Like the color.